Hurts Like Hades!

warning: explicit content!

stressed

i have a problem.
I am entirely too nice for my own good.
i love making others feel good about themsleves.
I love it when others are happy.
I love doing things for others.

but because i do.... others take advantage and use me for their benefit. I don't like that feeling. I don't like being taken for granted.
I don't like feeling like i don't have any say when it comes to certain matters. I don't like being the back-up friend.

I am in a not so happy mood at the moment if any one can't tell.

one day i will learn to say no.

i have no pictures... i guess that means i should start writing about my life again. and that means i should stop telling my mother all of my stories before i write them down. because if i do i don't feel the need to go on and write. or something like that.

smelly!

We are selling our house. Well, actually my parents are selling their house. I just happen to be living there. the relator is coming tomorrow to check out the house and tell us how much it is worth. I t better be lots because I said so. I might have to move out within the next six months. I need to make sure I have enough money to do that kind of thing!

My new job... Well, actually my semi-new job. I started this job a year ago worked there for eight months went to BYU-Idaho and then came back. BYU Grounds welcomed me back with open arms! they even gave me free lunch... and then back to work. go spray some weeds, go fertilize the turf, go put bio-stimulant on those plants... and the list goes on. I guess what I am trying to say is, "It is nice to be back".